I had been circling Psalm 130’s waiting words for three days. Returning to them. Re-reading them. Digging into them. Unable to shake them. And the next morning, I revisited them once again, this time turning to Charles Spurgeon’s collection of explanatory notes from various pastors, teachers, scholars, and theologians on the chapter. And once again, I found solace in the words.
Are you ready for a truth-bomb? When you are going through difficulty and wonder where God is, remember: the teacher is always quiet during the test. – Anonymous
Remember. It was the first word that came to me during a recent quiet time. And when it did, my mind flashed to this one particular journal from back in 2009 and those raw written words just four pages in and only two weeks into the brand new year. It ended with a verse in...
It’s been a little quiet around here. And that’s because of one very special reason. I’ve been keeping a secret But I’m getting a little ahead of myself here. I have to back up and tell this story from the beginning. Because there is so much glory wrapped up in every detail. I’m actually shaking my head as I...
THIS IS THE MOST WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL THING I HAVE EVER HEARD!! Jane, I prayed for you after you told this story at Pursuit and I just KNEW it was going to happen soon! This is incredible!! I have had you on my heart since the conference and I am BEYOND excited for you!! What a beautiful promise. God is so good.ReplyCancel
Oh precious Jane!!!!
I cannot stop weeping and praising God for this news! Tears of JOY are streaming down my face!!!! I have been praying for you guys for some time now – we even put your name on a lantern that we prayed over and released during the Lantern Festival (Loy Krathong – Yi Ping) in Thailand in November along with some other dear friends who were waiting. I have been so moved by your FAITH – so encouraged. God has given me one word that I have told myself again and again – for you, and for me, and for a couple of other special friends God laid on my heart as we waited for our babies – FAITHFUL. He is FAITHFUL!!!! And I have been meditating on that in the “waiting” for some time now. 2016 is a year of miracles – I am convinced of that!
Thank you for waiting faithfully and trusting Him – and thank you for sharing all He revealed to you about your coming miracle in this blog. As we wait and trust Him with a word He gave me months ago about our daughter’s homecoming – I needed this encouragement to have FAITH (even when it doesn’t seem logical). You are and have always been a blessing to me, dear sister. Grateful for you and Josh and your precious little one on the way!!!! xoxoReplyCancel
Oh sweet girl! I am over the moon at this announcement. He is so good! I was so blessed to hear you at 2 of the Pursuit conferences and have loved Streams in the Desert so much because of you. Just like you, that devotional has come right in the nick of time for certain situations. I’m praying for a healthy pregnancy!!ReplyCancel
Hi there! I’m super new to your blog, as in “this is the first post I read because I clicked on a cute suggested photo on Instagram and read the caption”. First off congratulations! God is so good and He delivers!!!
When I initially clicked on the photo, I thought “cute photo, let me investigate her account more” and then I read the caption and immediately thought “great… this is exactly what I didn’t want to read – another pregnancy announcement on Mother’s Day”. Now, before you think I’m super rude and start the roll of the eyeballs, let me explain.
For over three and a half years, my husband (student ministry pastor and football coach) and I (a Jill of all trades, multi-faceted entrepreneur) have been trying to pursue having a family of our own and have not been successful. So to me it was another punch to the gut on top of it being Mother’s Day which is already a super difficult day for me which I know you can understand and relate to.
However, when I saw “God of miracles” I stopped and thought “she’s going to be someone who has a message that I need to hear”. Needless to say, out of obedience I clicked on the link to this post and started to read. I was joyful, heartbroken, happy, crying, etc. while reading your post all at the same time – it was a roller coaster of emotions. Most importantly, I was encouraged.
My story is different than yours and God is still writing it. Through this process we discovered that I have a brain tumor that causes my body to over produce a hormone that eliminates any chance for my body to ovulate. We tried treating it with prescription drugs – it failed. We asked about surgery – the doctors said no. They asked about doing radiation and potentially blinding me – we said no. We pursued infertility treatments – we were given two options. Hormone injections to the tune of $5k+ and IVF to the tune of $23k with no guarantee for either option – we said no.
We know that God has called us to church ministry and know that He has called us to have a more initiate ministry in our home too. We chose to act on it now by pursuing foster care while still actively trying to pursue having our own biological child (you can read that story here if you’re curious:
sarahweaverbranding.com/blog/2016/2/16/this-is-my-why
I know 1,277 days does not compare to the 3650 days you’ve waited for your miracle, but the pain and hurt experienced isn’t any different – it’s deep, it’s aweful, it’s sometimes unbearable. Your post encouraged me so very much and was a tremendous light on a day that has been so dark for me over the past few years. Thank you for sharing your heart and your story of hope, faith and need of our amazing Creator and Savior. God is without a doubt using you and your husband to bring Him glory.
Oh Jane!! I gasped and cried when I read this. You have been on my heart ever since I heard your story at Pursuit. Thank you for your faithfulness to trust the Lord and His plan for your life and be so willing to share it all. He’s doing amazing things through your story. It has given me encouragement as we have been dealing with second infertility. Praying for you as you and Josh as you prepare for parenthood!! Amen! Thank you Jesus!!!!!!ReplyCancel
Jane-
I can’t express how munch your story means to me! My husband and I are currently going through this and I feel like I break a little bit more every time someone asks when we are going to have kids. And it kills me when I see those first little red spots evey month…
I was actually talking to a friend about this this weekend and she told me your story- so to see your confirmation this morning has blessed me beyond words!
I want to thank you for you commitment and faith, it has bolstered me to remember that God has not broken his promises to my family but that it must be in His time and not mine. So I will continue to wait on Him and his perfect timing. God bless you and your husband and especially that new little miracle!ReplyCancel
Hey Jane, I am actually sitting here crying because the LORD has finally answered this prayer that I have been following since the Fall 2014 Pursuit Conference.
After all the screaming about how FANTASTIC and AWESOME God is! I finished reading and I cannot stop crying tears of Joy that HE ANSWERED LIKE HE SAID HE WOULD!
WOW, WOW, Lady God has used you and your story to speak so LOUDLY to my heart and to encourage me that HE IS A GOOD FATHER, I am SOOO HAPPY for you and thankful for all those times that He had me pray and thank Him for bringing you into my life.
CONGRATULATIONS dear sister, I am REJOICING that He delights to give us what He has promised us!ReplyCancel
wow wow wow. Chills. This is amazing! God is SO good. As someone who has been waiting 4 years for their miracle and also hasn’t tracked, charted, temped, etc this encourages my heart. Thank you Lord that you are no respecter of persons. I just love your faith and am joining you in jumping for joy!!!! Yes JESUS!ReplyCancel
GREAT ARE YOU LORD! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS PROMISE FULFILLED and the amazing Grace that Jane has carried on this journey. LORD you are so good! THANK YOU.
Jane, I am nuts excited for you and just overwhelmed with HOPE in this sharing. I am so incredibly inspired by your heart and man oh man! I am so grateful for you not giving up!! SO MANY TEARS.
I can’t even begin to describe how your story has spoken right to my heart. Thank you for being courageous and sharing your story. I wept tears of joy and praise while reading this post. GOD IS SO GOOD AND SO FAITHFUL! God is still writing my story but he has already done miraculous things in my life and I can’t wait to see what’s next. Thank you for renewing my hope and my spark. God is a promise-giver and a promise-keeper. Thank you for allowing God to paint that picture so beautifully with your life.ReplyCancel
Your story is so inspiring! Congratulations to you and your husband. I am new to your blog and am really enjoying it! I was wondering if you have a post about your process of waiting and hoping for a child. Did you seek out doctors to determine if there was something wrong and did you use any other methods to achieve pregnancy (hormones, IVF, etc.)? I would love to hear that part of your story and if you have already spoken about then I would appreciate some direction to that post! Thank you and God Bless!!ReplyCancel
I love this! Thank you so much for sharing!
After brain surgery, my fertility became, well, infertility. And so we started praying. And praying. And praying. And at the end of one of our weeks of devoted prayer (the day of), we conceived. And looking back at my prayer journal for what I had written on those days, it’s the same a-ha moments that you had. In HIS time.
All I can say is AMDG (In His Glory!!!!)… prayers for you as you continue your journey as a mama!ReplyCancel
I’m reading your testimony in tears. God is so faithful. Your story is so much like mine. The heartbreak and waiting feels so fresh even though, like you, God has already answered my prayer. Sleeping sweetly in front of me is my 2 week old miracle baby boy… the sweetest of promises fulfilled right here. He’s so worth the wait. Congrats.ReplyCancel
Back to school week. It’s a little different for everyone on the emotional scale. Some mothers are sending their little ones off for the first time through tears. Others are popping a bottle of champagne in the middle of the street as the school bus drives off. And then there’s the Bill Murrays waking up...
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