
These words are part of a collection of writings from the final months of our ten-year-long journey of delayed fertility. In them, I’m pulling back the privacy-curtain and taking you inside the pages of my prayer journals to give insight to those who have not experienced infertility, and hope to those neck-deep in the lonely-midst of it....
So rich! I’m not happy you had to suffer for 10 years..but what I am happy about is that you used that time so wisely, depended on God hardcore, dug treasures from His word, and now you share with anyone who will listen, the richness of God’s mercy and glory while we wait for whatever it is we are called to wait for!
I love that you are able to drink from this well of mine. Thank you so much for being a part of our story!
Dear Jane,
I found your blog I think about 3 months ago. I was STUNNED by your story. How faithful is our GOD!! I cannot tell you in mere words how much HOPE you spoke into my life. My sweet hubby and I have been married for 11 years. We didn’t intentionally try to get pregnant for most of those years because we were both in Medical school and also because of health issues I was dealing with. Fast forward to 2017 – felt like several storms in our life were settling down and we started to try. Only to be facing the devastating diagnosis of low AMH and after several tries of infertility treatment, the RE we were working with said “There is nothing I can do for you. You are not a candidate for anything other than donor eggs.” Needless to say, I felt like I was punched in the guts. I’ve never felt a sorrow quite like that. I think since I was like 5 years old.. all I’ve ever wanted to be was a mom of like 10 children!! haha! 🙂 The irony!! After that tiring, long cycle of treatment and that shattering diagnosis, I quit treatment. Even before I started treatment, the Lord was speaking to me profusely. He was prodigal with his Words and promises. So much so that at times I couldn’t handle it..I would think and tell him, “Father.. I have dealt with so much in my life where you’ve been silent. But over this.. you won’t stop reassuring me with your Promises!!! I am SO grateful.. and I believe! Of course I believe!!” I wrote everything down. Only did I realize that after that diagnosis, how much I NEEDED to go over those over-abundant promises from my God to strengthen my heart. Fast forward to 2019.. I’m still waiting. He is still speaking. I am still writing them all down. And they all seem like this gorgeous network of interwoven Promises.. all linked to a GENEROUS Father who sees me and knows me and loves me and has the VERY best for me. I read your post today on this crisp, cold Saturday morning. For about 2 weeks now, God has been pointing me to 2 Kings 3. ‘I will fill this valley with pools of water..” I was puzzled that digging wells/trenches was omitted out of the newly revised NIV version. Of course it’s still there in other versions. And I thought to myself, “I’m tired, Lord…maybe I’m tired of digging. I feel so sapped of strength.” And then I read your post and read the comments about “dug treasures from His Word’ and “I love that you are able to drink from this well of mine.” I dont know what all this means.. BUT GOD does. ‘This is an easy thing in the eyes of the Lord..” 2 Kings 3:18. Jesus, your promises are ALWAYS yes and Amen!! Thank you dear Jane for your encouragement and your life poured out for us to drink from and be strengthened.
Oh my goodness, I love that! God is so faithful to plant those little ribbon-like trailmarkers along the way in that “you’re on the right path, keep going” kind of way that He has about Him. So, so special. xo!
Jane, your words and the path you have walked have literally been a huge source of encouragement in my life…i got the notification that this post went up and i was “busy” so it sat in my inbox. Today, just now i read the post when i needed it the most. The blessing and encouragement i received is to ask the Lord to make me strong enough for the story that He wants to tell. He met me in your words just at the perfect time.
I speak His promises over myself everyday and one of them is: “The LORD commands His blessing on my storehouses and in all that I set
my hand to do, and He blesses me in the land that He is giving me
(Deuteronomy 28:8).” … okay Lord I hear you !
Thank you for all you share, your sharing has me writing out all the thoughts in my own season of waiting and i am even thinking about carrying a journal with me to write all the word that i can down.
Congratulations Jane on the arrival of your precious baby girl!!!!!!!
I am THRILLED for you and your family – all the while praising our GOD for his sweet, fulfilled promises!!
I am the same person, ‘L’ who wrote below on November 9th.
Last week I got a stunning message from my OB Gyn saying I’m “menopausal.”
I’m in DISBELIEF to say the least..
This seems like the worst of all the blows we’ve been dealing with!!
What about all the 3 year long promises I’ve been writing down? Did I imagine all of them? Did I make them all up? It surely can’t be!!! And suppose it’s true.. I don’t know what to think other than “Let God’s words always be TRUE AND YES AND AMEN and every other word that is not from him be a lie!!” I don’t care about “the words I wrote down” coming true. I deeply CARE about GOD’s infallible words ALWAYS being true and coming true and happening in our lives on this earth as his will determines.
I am the most fallible of people. I am not worthy for any of God’s promises to come true in my life…
BUT GOD..
I have seen him come through FOR ME my ENTIRE LIFE. He surely is not going to quit now. He surely is not going to stop now..
Please keep us in your prayers as my sweet Husband and I are going through a whole new whirlwind of sorts..